"physically, mentally, emotionally,financially exhausted!!!!
just imagine ..sorang dalam rumah buat PhD pun..hidup dah stress...and in Alday Street ada 2 org buat serentak + entitle to ONLY 1 scholarship + 3 kids + no baby sitter+ no "bibik" to help with housework+ facing same expectation /progress from supervisor = Gua rasa mau laariiiii... woooo....'satu perjalanan yang amat menguji tahap kesabaran'.....
I quoted the above statement from a dear friend FB status...it is a striken statement to me because it reflected 99% of what I felt and experienced now. Having a husband who is doing a PhD at the same time and two small kids, boys somehow, woww....sometimes, me and husband always asking each other, how did we manage to do it so far? And in between these questions, my concern is, did I sacrifice too much to tackle all these family circumstances to the extend I jeopardise my PhD working time? I asked this question because sometimes I can choose to leave the house messy, to leave a high mountains of clothes piled up, to eat outside whenever we are hungry, to let all the toys at every corner of the house, but I don't have the "heart" to do that, I am a kind of person who doesn't like to see things messy, I like to see the house clean, tidy and these will 'soothe' my eyes. Therefore, I do not mind spending my time cleaning and tidying up things in the house. But again, sometimes, it goes too much especially with the kids tantrums and their 'not cooperative' nature will sometimes stressing you more.
Yet again, I always try not to complaint because this is the 'road' I chose and my husband, so, be 'redha' and also I always believe that kehadiran suami/isteri dan anak-anak memberi keberkatan dan ketenangan dalam usaha kita menimba ilmu, insyaAllah. Kasih sayang, rezeki dan anak-anak semuanya adalah nikmat daripada Allah, .semoga kita selalu mensyukuri nikmatnya.
"Never-married women without children are often stereotyped as being career-driven, competitive, and aloof, and they have no mate or offspring to validate their attractiveness, desirability, or compassionate nature. Therefore, these women often struggle to achieve a balance between being perceived as serious professionals and maintaining their femininity. This struggle only reinforces the often pervasive notion of singlehood as a “problem” needing to be fixed"
